The Perfect Day......

15yrs back a young school boy sitting on his desk with nothing to do and nothing to write,he opened his notebook and pen and wrote A PERFECT DAY.Darkened it again & again as if he was not writing on his notebook but on his future-book.
He wanted to visualise what would be a perfect day for him.Surely a day with no school,no studies but what would be their replacements!!
A full day of playing cricket!!!Will it be the perfect day!!But what if he gets hurt during the match!!Will it still remain perfect??
A day with his crush-a breakfast with her in a garden type restaurant,a long ride on the lonliest road,a romantic movie,a lunch in a star hotel,a walk on the beach in the evening,a dinner under the moonlight and a goodnight kiss.But what if she doesnt like his way of romance!!Would it remain perfect??
A day with famiy - would that be a perfect day??But he knows his family.... They would certainly pressurise him to study so that couldnt be the perfect day.
A day when he has to obey noone's order,A day when he has to depend on noone else for his demands,A day when he will have his own wallet and he doesnt have to answer anyone to spend the money inside it - this seemed perfect for the young boy.



15 years later sitting on his desk with no work to do he opened the notepad(notebook has been replaced by notepad and pen has been replaced by keyboard) and wanted to write A PERFECT DAY.
He thought again and again...took a lot of time but finally came to the conclusion:

HIS PERFECT DAY HAD PASSED 15YEARS AGO.

FOR HIM THE PERFECT DAY WAS THAT DAY,15 YEARS BACK , WHEN HE WAS SITTING ON HIS DESK AND AND COULD DREAM...BECAUSE TODAY HE HAS SO MANY BROKEN DREAMS THAT HE COULDNT EVEN DARE TO DREAM.

CET-IT(2007-11)..6th sem

Ahh!!Anothr boring day!Anothr ****ing class!!yet the same faculty wd her same stuffs..C strtd da class wd"wat is amplitude?""wat is frequency?""wat is phase??"..wtf!!Hw many yrs we hv 2 study da same things??when da amplitude f our learning ll increase n frequency f da same ll decrease??C moved 2 ATTENEUATN n said "atteneuatn is loss f energy"..bt whose energy!!nobody is concernd abt my loss f energy.I m sitting in da same seat since 8am n its 1pm now..I culd hv watchd 2 Bollywood movies had da seat been in KESHARI or S-COMPLEX..
"noise is f 4 types"continued da teachr"induced,thermal....(I culdnt even hear da othr 2 types)".my eyes fell on a grl..Itook grt interest in her not bcos c ws beautiful or attractive bt bos f wat c ws doing wd her mobile..c must b sending sm texts 2 her frnds..bt why c looks at that corner boy & smiles aftr sending msgs!!May b new luv story hs begun in our class!!Anyways I ws having a gud sight..
Suddenly i felt silence in da class.someone has died or going 2 die!!!"0701106248...0701106248"da teachr ws repeating da numbr..is it her mobile numbr or wat!!!bt da numbr seems familiar.ohh ****!!This is my reg numbr..so I m going 2 die then.Thank u class 4 da silent mourning.
"yes maammmmm"said in a low voice."wat were u doing?""R u in da class??""why r u not speaking anythng?"screamd da teachr.ohh God!!somebody plz tell her i can speak only when c shuts her front door."wats ur name?"ws da next qns.wtf!!!i hv been in da same dept for da last 3yrs n c doesnt even kno my name!!Go 2 hell...!!I lookd at my watch.God!!its 1.20 only..stil 30mins..plz help me..
"Sit down u idiot.I cant waste my tym 2 kno ur golden branded name"screamd da teachr.Thank God c didnt cross my attendance 4 da day nor threatend 2 report to da LORD..bt wait a sec did c say c ws nt intrestd in my golden branded name!!ya mine is a golden branded name..My parents had referd 2 atleast 5-7naming books to get this name.
C continued watevr c had byheartd at home n I ws not atall intrestd in her stuffs.Anyways that grl ws nt sending msgss any more.balance NIL!!or learnt smthing frm my episode!!ok Lets c wat our hottest coupl r doing..same old method-LOVE THROUGH BLUETOOTH.The grl said smthing wd her eyes ,the boy smild n shook his head!!did he really undrstnd wat c said!!common..hw culd any1 undrstnd sm1's eye-language frm this distance!!may b thats wat they call LOVE..well der r many more one sided lovers who never miss a chance 2 get a glimpse f their lady loves..By watching them I too lost myself in my drms.Aftrall man ll always b man...
Suddenly I ws divertd frm my beautiful drms.****ing guy!!he is shouting frm da 1st period"maam next class plz..".smbody plz giv him some water.Hey wat da hell the corner boy is doing wd a blade n da attendance sheet!!God!!he is repairing his attendance..gr8 work buddy.I need ur help too.
Well among othrs some were njoying their sleep...some were planning 2 bunk da nextday's class..n some were busy reading some materials of diff institutns(just 2 show that they r preparing 4 higher studies).Evry1 being busy wd his own stuff whom da teachr ws teaching to...??ohh!!I forgot abt those front benchers..Speaking abt them-they prefer 2hrs in library wd a CAO book in hand to seat before da silver screen to c a movie..u can imagine hw much studios they r!!Anyways thanks 2 them teachrs get some answers 2 their qns..
"This much 4 2day.."-The magical line came frm da centr..I wantd 2 say "CONGO" 2 da boy who ws saying "next class...next class" frm da begining bt lookd at my watch.Its 1.55!!shit!!I hv 2 rush 2 da bus stop now.So i hv 2 stop my pen now.I m sure u must hv njoyed my class.If I hv forgot 2 mentn abt u I m sorry.

I wanna Grow up once AGAIN...

Today is 13th july 2010,the Rathayatra,my 21st B'day.Eachtime I think abt my B'day resolutn one famous bollywood song strikes my mind...

Give me some sunshine

Give me some rain

Give me another chance

I wanna grow up once again....

Since the day it ws 1st aired everyone on earth want 2 grow up.Some want 2 grow up once again 2 mak themselves 6'tall,some want 2 build a Salman like body and some want 2 weighten their CV wd some more achievements.But I m obessed wd all these positivities.May b I hv 2 grow up not once again but again and again and again.

So I never desired 2 grow up once again.But aftr 1031days' hardwork for 36theory papers n 24non AC labs when I scored my 1st O grade my heart too desired 2 grow up once again 2 score some more Os.

Hence I dont want 2 live again all the 21yrs but if God grants then I ll definitely wanna live my last 3yrs(3yrs-1031days starting frm 20th Aug 2007 to till date) and the "to b done" list for the 3yrs is quite large...

I hv seen many ppl performing on stage on various occasions like Xstasy,Urzaa,sannidhya and many other functions.But I hv never been 2 the stage.Cant I too make a heart-winning performance on stage??I kno the ans is clearly a "NO".bt I wanna grow up once again 2 perform atleast as the corner boy in a group performance.

I hv earned or been gifted wd many frnds.I do hang out wd them,njoy the smallest achievments,gossip wd them even during the strict faculty's class.Sometimes I hurt them too knowingly or unknowingly and forget it saying "no sory,no thank u in frndship".so I wanna grow up once again 2 learn 2 say sory to them.

U must b wondering why i hv posted this blog on 19th.Actually i hd planned 2 do it on 13th but u kno i m lik Darseel "Jo har kaam ko taalan karten hain n all iz well bolke so jaae hain..".I hv paid some large amounts for that too.so 2day i promise to myself if given a chance 2 grow up once again i ll do everything ontime.

If u too wanna grow up once again u r free 2 share ur feelings...

EXAM TENSION...

Hi.My semester xam is scheduled 2 b on 22nd may.That means only 20odd days r remaining and I,Mr good for nothing dont even kno the subject names.U must b thinking wat this idiot ws doing all through these 4months. Only 24hrs mak a day.Out f which I hv 2 spend 8precious hrs in colg which is not worse than hell.And then 8-10hrs sleep is must else how can I drm abt....,IPL & KPL take 4-6hrs.Another 2hrs r dedicated to phone calls,missd calls and nature's calls.So cant even get one sec for study.

Well thats not da only one reason for my lack f preparatn our so called intresting subjects also hv a gr8 contributn.Let me introduce u with my subjects in brief.

1.POM-I hv mentnd POM 1st so dont predict that I hv any spcl liking towards the subject or the faculty.But bcoz its POM:productn &operatn management.Initially I tht it must b intresting as it sounds like fusion f engineers(productn),doctors(operatn) n HRs(management),but gradually all da excitement vanished as it deals with none f them.

2.DSP-Digital signal Processing..I cant even understand the girls' signal &its digital signal.U can imagine my strength in this subject.

3.Artificial Intelligence-I think I m born intelligent i.e. naturally intelligent.so no need 2 instal any artificial one in my system.

4.Operating System-OS is the interface betn user n the hardware.In my casethe user is in BBSR n the hardware is in Berhampur. So the interface is roaming betn these 2 cities.I m yet 2 catch it.

5.Comp Architecture n Organisatn-All through these days I ws trying to organise my physical architecture & I realised how bad organiser I m.So couldnt dare to try to organise comp architecture.

6.Comp Network-This is indeed intresting.But everytime I try 2 read this subj I cant get the book.Only yesterday I found that the thing I ws using as my pillow after the lost f old one is my CN book.So culdnt study it too.

This is all the reasons for my xam 10sn.I hope it ll deduct some f ur 10sns.By da way if u too hv some out f box 10sns feel free 2 share and if u r strong enough in any f these subjs when ll u strt teaching me??

THANK U...

THE THING IS LOVE...

"Is it love??Do i really love her??"-I have been asking the same damn qns to the person inside the mirror for the last 8yrs whenever I come in front of it.But still have not got my ans.Recently I watched a movie wher at climax the director asks"so when u realize its love??".I would say let me 1st realize "wat is love?"then will giv a 2nd tht to decide whether its love or not.

I stil remember the 1st day which ws not atall diff from other days.Air ws in no mood to play any music.Weather ws not also so romantic.But when the fair complexed angel wd rosy -cheeks,coral-lips,silky-hair passed by everything around me ws changed.Her smile was just like a 3yr old baby which touches to the dippest part of heart.My heart murmured the famous Bollywood item-"chanda ki doli me...".My eyes wanted to see her again and again.I tht it is LOVE.But then the hardtask master,my math teacher gave me a solid slap and said,'Its ATTRACTION only,boy'.

The attraction continued for days,months and yrs until someone proposed her.That day I wanted to give him a punch on his face,kick his ass.Though I am a boy who runs to the bedroom when the street dogs bark,that day I ws feeling like a tiger.I tht thats bcoz of LOVE.But then my brother gave me a punch and said ,"Its only POSSESSIVENESS."

The attractn and possessiveness continued for yrs.We talk to each other every other night over phone.We quarrell,we make up.talk abt the old days,plan for the future forgetting present.And the day when network gets busy I pass the whole night cursing Mr Ambani for his communication service.I cant even sleep without talking to her.I tht thats LOVE.But my roommate says,"Its only ur INFACTUATION.switch off the light and let me sleep.."

If all these are only ATTRACTION,POSSESSIVENESS and INFACTUATION then what is LOVE?Hey Reader if u realize wat is love then plz let me kno bcoz I too want to fall in LOVE and till then I LOVE U ALL...